Michael Jackson bleached his skin to "erase his memory" of his alleged abusive father, according to the physician Doctor Conrad Murray.
The late ‘Thriller’ hitmaker, who lightened his skin and underwent a number of face reconstructions in a bid to look like a "northern athlete", is believed to have undergone the transformations to try to escape the traumatic recollections of his childhood and the constant reminders of Joe Jackson, who tormented him for his African American facial features, and to distance himself from his parentage.
Speaking exclusively to BANG Showbiz about the reason behind Michael’s cosmetic surgery, Conrad said: "In the book we talked about him running away from his memory. I used the word morphological changing and basically of course he was morphing himself, it doesn’t matter that his skin was bleached or whether his structural face is good or whether his nose it like a northern athlete. That may have been a mixture of things.
"But many times when he on his own he had more because he was trying to erase his memory."
However, the music legend couldn’t escape his own thoughts and even contemplated undergoing a brain operation to be at peace with himself.
He explained: "But he could not erase his memory so that’s when he talked to me about the brain operation."
Despite his various procedures Conrad has revealed Michael didn’t change his appearance to look like a "white man" because he spoke in "black language", but to distance himself .
Conrad – who has penned a book about the star called ‘This Is It! The Secret lives of Dr. Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson’, which is available to buy now – explained: "As I’ve explained in my book. I explained the KJA, the Klein Jackson Arsenal, and Michael is fascinating and about medicine and he knows everything, he’s written it out, he has it. We went through the things together.
"But I also described in the book that I don’t think he had a desire to be a white man. He never disclosed that to me because he always spoke in black language like that. The book will describe the whole process.
"But at the same time, was he trying to separate himself and be so far from his own Jackson clan? Or for the topic appearance? His skin was light his children were white. He was creating a world that was totally different but then I’m not white, but he loved me so deeply because he cared about me but he also watched me. He said: ‘You know I’ve been watching you for a long time’. I didn’t like that, you know, why are you watching me? And then he said, ‘I have been watching you for a long time and I am convinced you are the one, when my children are sick they call you Dr. Conrad. They ask for Dr Conrad. ‘They know, I know, we know, we love you. We want you to be with us.’"
Meanwhile Conrad – who was sentenced to four years in jail, although he served two, for the involuntary manslaughter of the King of Pop after administering a fatal dose of anesthetic Propofol in June 2009 – has admitted if he could back track on his life, he wouldn’t want to cross paths with the artist.
He explained: "It was a tremendous relationship for all I have been through. If someone were to show me the future and all of this hadn’t happened yet. I would not want to meet Michael Jackson."